#betruth

All you have to do is say ‘that I’m sorry.’

Tell me your deepest thoughts. 

Paciente, confiante, intuitivo.

And after all this time I’m still you.

“Take a breath, take it deep, calm yourself” he says to me. If you play, you play for keeps. Take the gun and count to three. I’m sweating now, moving slow. No time to think, my turn to go. And you can see my heart beating, you can see it through my chest. Said I’m terrified, but I’m not leaving. I know that I must pass this test. So just pull the trigger. Say a prayer to yourself. He says: “close your eyes, sometimes it helps”. And then I get a scary thought that he’s here means he’s never lost.
As my life flashes before my eyes I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise? So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late too think of the value of my life.

The power lines went out and I am all alone, but I don’t really care at all. Not answering my phone, all the games you played, the promises you made… Couldn’t finish what you started, only darkness still remains. Lost sight, couldn’t see, when it was you and me. Blow the candles out, looks like a solo tonight, I’m beginning to see the light. Blow the candles out, looks like a solo tonight but I think I’ll be alright. Been black and blue before, there’s no need to explain. I am not the jaded kind  playback’s such a waste. You’re invisible, invisible to me. My wish is coming true erase the memory of your face. One day you will wake up with nothing but “you’re sorrys” and someday you will get back everything you gave me.

Imagine a future of you and me, seems good and then you leave. The pain in this vision is killing me, reality is we will never be. I’m prompt to be love travesty, and it feels like another tragedy. And the truth really is we’re too young to understand love domain. Love express I’ll take you out the fireflies and should go and crash. No replying from the ash, we’ll just be burning up after that. I hate you or you hate me or I’ll take you or you’ll break or… And now, I’m scared, cause I’ve been there stuck in this prison, no optimism.

And now is “Hello, hi, goodbye”, my heart has no room for love. 
My heart felt so in love. In the other time I’ll be up. But that thing in me is gone.

I know you wish somehow I could explain, I’m still numb from the pain. I don’t wanna know your name, please, get up and walk away… 
I don’t wanna fall in love again. Don’t wanna start anything that could end. I know you think you can get thought to me, but I’m lock in this love’s penitentiary. I already know how this goes: laid down, broken, heart broke.

You’re not easy to love. Why is everything with you complicated? Why do you make so hard to love? I hate it! Cause if you really wanna be alone I throw my hands up cause, baby, I tried. But everything with you is so complicated, why?
Sometimes I get you, sometimes I don’t understand. Sometimes I love you, sometimes is you can’t stand. Sometimes I wanna hug you, sometimes I wanna push you away. Most times I wanna kiss you, other times, punch in the face. Cause every minute you starts to switching up and you say things like you don’t give a fuck, then I say “I’m through with you, take my heart from you” and you come running after me and baby, I’m back with you. 

Sometimes I catch you, sometimes you get away. Sometime I read you, other times I’m like “where you on the page?”. Sometimes I feel like we’ll be together forever, but you’re so complicated, my heart knows better. 

I’mma stick around just a little while longer, just to make sure that you really sure you like sleeping alone.

You’re not easy to love, no.